Ok… so I have a bit of a big reveal here and it’s not something I feel particularly comfortable with but I’m going to share it anyway.

 

So last week I shared with you my first experience of hypnotherapy. How Ali Hollands unlocked something in me that had been holding me back for a very long time. (43 yearsto be exact!)

 

What you may not realise is that I struggle withead stand_3966h writing. I know it’s something I need to do for my business, but I don’t particularly enjoy it. I find it hard, the edit process boring, and when I sit in front of my computer to write, my mind goes blank! It’s like someone has put a vacuum nozzle up my nose and sucked out every last idea I ever had! It doesn’t even help if I have a list of things to write about.

 

 

When I do eventually get something down on my laptop, I make lots of mistakes, the grammar, apostrophe and spelling police would have a field day with me (fear!) I convince myself it’s not very good (you’re crap at this!) it drains me; I feel heavy, lethargic and give up! (Told you so!)

I force myself to get on with it because I have to, but what then comes out doesn’t always feel authentic. It’s an amalgamation of “stuff” but I’m inconsistent and bit jumbled and I don’t really like how that makes me feel. In my head it sounds great, but it’s like my mouth has been taped up ( Not such a bad idea sometimes!)

 

I’ve convinced myself over too many years I can’t write. It’s hard and laborious and despite endless tutorials, webinars, books, blogs and tips, it’s still hard.

My difficulty is founded in a long held belief that I’m a slow reader, implanted in childhood aged 6, by a very officious teacher who told me I was just that. The knock on effect of that in my very young brain, was you are a slow reader, therefore you can’t keep up, therefore you can’t write either. It’s followed me for YEARS!!!!! I know, I know mad ay? But it’s there.

So here’s the secret sauce… I realised I couldn’t go on feeling like this. Something needed to change.

I had to explore the “What the hell is happening here?” because it holds me back in my business.

Enter Ali Hollands from Inspired To Change Hypnotherapy

In 2 sessions Ali has not only helped me eradicate the long held belief “I’m crap at writing” she did something today that helped me really believe that I can get my thoughts down on paper and share them in a way that feels real, fun, authentic and enjoyable. It energises me and I can do it in a way that feels right. I want my writing to feel right! Writing wasn’t working for me, so I’m doing it differently from here on in.

WHAT I NOW REALISE IS THIS:

I haven’t been creating the physical, emotional and mental space to write.

It’s always put to the bottom of my priority list because I don’t like doing it.

It’s hard + I hate it = rush it

 

SO I’M TURNING THINGS ON THEIR HEAD!( Picture!!!) FROM HERE ON IN THIS IS WHAT I WILL DO DIFFERENTLY.

I’m going to plan and schedule my perfect writing day every 2 weeks.

I will dedicate time, space and energy to the creation of something I feel proud of.

I want it to be full of energy, real, clear, fun and authentic (or a combo of at least 2 of these)

If what I write inspires or helps just one person, then that’s just brilliant.

I want to feel positive, energised happy and content when I am writing.

I will take time to plan and relax before I write.

I’m going to collect my thoughts in one place, a beautiful notebook.

I’ll push it up my priority list so it becomes something I look forward to rather than it feeling like a ruddy great millstone.

I’m going to write in calm and beautiful spaces.

I’m going to calm my mind and let the thoughts flow.

No rush … just flooooowwww!

I’m not going to worry what other people do, think or share, this is my voice, my words, my thoughts and that’s OK.

I’M GOING TO MAKE WRITING DAY A SPECIAL DAY, IN-FACT…A PERFECT DAY.

 

Thank you Ali Hollands!